It has been a difficult week, since the 4th of July. I had a very stirring conversation with my friend Jael and she caused me to step back and look at God's plans for my life. It has been an interesting progression as the summer has unfolded..... The first few weeks, I was ready to fill out the application for Mission Adelante and move down here. Then, reality began to sink in and God started showing me what life in ministry would really entail. I have started to see how much pressure I have been putting on myself this summer to choose a path, while God was asking me to wait and be patient. Instead of getting caught up in the details of what my life would look like in the flow of this ministry, I neglected to ask God if this is what HE is calling me to. So now, I am in the process of waiting on God to reveal that to me. I am not sure if it will take the rest of the summer or ten years, but I want to make sure that if I enter this ministry, it is solely because God wills it. Added to all this is this intense love for our community and the quickly approaching reality that the summer will be over soon. It is absolutely heart wrenching to try and imagine a life that does not involve my community. Sure, I will come down for activities and for Kids Adelante but it's not the same as living here. I have thought to myself so many times this summer that if God wanted me to teach the rest of my life, He shouldn't have sent me down here this summer :) This process is teaching me how to trust in a new and all-encompassing way but I also know that God placed this desire in my heart for a reason. He will honor it, of that I am sure. As Jarrett told me this summer, "God always pays for what He orders." Bless all of you guys and thanks to those of you that read/check this. Your support this summer has been beyond encouraging in a time of great transition.